So deeply felt is a burden, nothing else. To feel so deeply makes me frown. Deeply felt is a sin. Feeling deeply a tragic curse. To feel so deeply as to be scarred by everything left to be just a mark.
They say that you find yourself, try to become a better person all your shitty friend they will be gone. God will not allow you to work on you, let you get better and heal and keep bad friends that influence you the wrong way. that is not going to happen.